A curious conundrum
For those of you have read SAAK before, SAAK knows there are not that many of you.. SAAK left the big bad city about 10 months ago… in nearly 10 years there SAAK had not met one person of his age he would call a friend… thinking, o’well, drowning not waving, SAAK has move to the middle of nowhere looking for a new start.
Okay, good plan you might thing, but unbeknownst to SAAK loneliness does not enjoy company.. rather it festers better on it own. IT’S TOUGH TO BE LONELY WHEN THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE AROUND YOU. Okay, yes, there are 5 million people in Sydney, but SAAK did not know any of them, in the middle of nowhere there are 5 thousand people and SAAK is related to many of them.
The move here was, as SAAK probably knew at the time, a resignation from life, but the constant “what’s wrong”, “what’s wrong”, that should be followed by “I’m sad and old and lonely and tired and fed up”, is responded by the usual not committal “nothing, why?”
Loneliness, as SAAK has now realised is a security blanket for the alone…. but it make so much more sense when you’re alone …..
SAAK gets the overwhelming feeling that, not only for himself, but for those who think they know him, he should have stayed and suffered in the big bad… FUCK SAAK IS LONELY….
Okay, good plan you might thing, but unbeknownst to SAAK loneliness does not enjoy company.. rather it festers better on it own. IT’S TOUGH TO BE LONELY WHEN THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE AROUND YOU. Okay, yes, there are 5 million people in Sydney, but SAAK did not know any of them, in the middle of nowhere there are 5 thousand people and SAAK is related to many of them.
The move here was, as SAAK probably knew at the time, a resignation from life, but the constant “what’s wrong”, “what’s wrong”, that should be followed by “I’m sad and old and lonely and tired and fed up”, is responded by the usual not committal “nothing, why?”
Loneliness, as SAAK has now realised is a security blanket for the alone…. but it make so much more sense when you’re alone …..
SAAK gets the overwhelming feeling that, not only for himself, but for those who think they know him, he should have stayed and suffered in the big bad… FUCK SAAK IS LONELY….
posted by scaryasakitten at 10:56 AM
1 Comments:
Hey SAAK. Not sure what you need. A friend would be nice. Maybe some counselling, if only to get some advice on the best way to reach out and be more sociable. I know you feel you're a backwards kind of creature (socially) but if the sadness of being alone is eating away at you maybe it's time to learn some skills. Talking to people is a skill you can learn - it doesn't feel natural and come easy to everyone despite how easy they make it look. I hope you find someone to talk to. I know what loneliness is like, if only from the vantage point of a single mother. Be well x.
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